FET #2

Well here we go again, we decided to not take time off in between and soon after stopping my estrogen/progesterone from the previous failed FET I started my cycle.  We jumped right back in and started a very similar protocol like we did with the first transfer.

October 10-12: Estrogen 4mg pills
October 13-15: Estrogen 6mg pills
October 16- Nov 9: Estrogen 8mg pills
October 21: Ultrasound lining looks good
October 21-Nov 9: Progesterone 1mL IM

Ultrasound of my uterus thickness 9.22mm

October 25th we got the call in the morning that our one embryo had thawed well.  Up to Omaha we went for our second FET, and everything went as well as it could.  We were excited thinking that this second time we would be safe.  I took things extra slow and easy the few days following.  We had Jackson go to preschool a few extra days so that I could keep my feet up and keep from lifting and chasing him around.  I felt relatively the same as the last cycle with the same symptoms, however this time I tried to not read into it at all knowing it most likely was just the progesterone side effects.

FET #2- 5 day blastocyst

Our first beta hcg test was on November 2nd, I had my labs drawn at Bryan and brought them home for Derrick and I to open over his lunch.  I had told Derrick anything over 5 meant we were pregnant but obviously the higher the better.  Derrick opened the paper and said to me "I hope you have a list of baby names going".  We were so excited but then I saw that the hcg was 48.  This freaked me out knowing that our son Jackson was 78 at this point and that 48 seemed low.  After hearing from Dr. Maud's office they confirmed we were pregnant and that it is all about how the number doubles in 48 hours.  We would have a repeat hcg draw in two days and then we would know how the baby was looking.

I worked Friday the 4th of November, when I went down for the blood draw at Bryan,  I folded it in half and took it to our Women and Children's 1st floor where I found a quiet room to sit in and call Derrick so that I could tell him it as I opened it.  The number was 80.  So it didn't double but it went up.  I immediately wanted to talk to the Doctor but I wanted to not seem to eager so I waited for them to call me.  Later that afternoon they called and we discussed that it could be a slow growing baby and that it just needs some time to take off.  They suggested rechecking our hcg in 5 days on November 9th so we waited the long 5 days, hoping and praying that those numbers would be big and beautiful at the recheck.

Finally the 9th came around, and sadly I was at work again (not the ideal place to be when finding out such crazy emotional provoking information). I went down and had my blood drawn but decided instead of getting the results from the lab that I would wait and have the office call me so that I would keep from driving myself crazy with information I couldn't interpret.  That afternoon Dr. Maud called me and told me sadly the hcg had gone down to 70.  We had lost the baby very early.  It is called a chemical pregnancy or a early term miscarriage.  To learn more about chemical pregnancy's look here: Chemical Pregnancy

We were devastated.  We were so happy to be pregnant just to have the news drawn out, feeling like we were sitting on a ledge not knowing which way we would go.  During that period of time we hoped and prayed and dare I even admit I tried to bargain in my prayers for this little baby, if only God would let us have this little baby.  But for some reason this little baby didn't get to stay with us.  We talked yet again with Dr. Maud and she again thought that the baby had a chromosomal abnormality. We discussed taking a break but in the end all Derrick and I wanted was a baby, we didn't want to wait we wanted one now.  We asked if my body physically could take back to back to back transfers and have just as good of chance, and Dr. Maud said that we would be fine to do whatever we mentally felt okay to do, so we decided to go for it...

FET#2 Cost: Ultrasound $78, Labs $40, FET: $4190, Medication $30